In June I wrote an article The Beginning of My How Journey. Let me tell you this hasn’t been an easy journey and even though I haven’t posted about it lately I have been working hard on it. I’ve been working hard to better myself for others but more importantly for ME. Looking in the mirror and saying “You know what Joie Betterly? You’re not so bad.”, was one of the hardest things for me to do.
My journey has been sabotaged by major major kicks to the gut. Here are just a few of them:
- My Mother in Law was hospitalized and they didn’t think she was going to make it.
- My friend after an 11 year fight with breast cancer died.
- One of my best friends in the world and the best person I know was diagnosed with the dreaded “C” word.
- We found out my husband has to go in for hernia surgery in Sept.
- I was told I need a double knee replacement and at 46 they won’t touch them.
- My cousin visited in July and I had a lot of difficulty walking because of my knees and it slowed everyone down.
- My cousin rented a boat while they were here and we got stranded out on the lake when it broke down.
SO let me just break some of this down, I was sad, I was angry, and was a lot of things but then after a lot of prayer and thoughts I was able to turn much of this around.
- My mother in law actually had nothing major wrong with her. She’s 75 and and hadn’t been to a doctor in over 10 years and her issues were just needing to take better care of herself and to start taking blood pressure meds and iron.
- My friend that died is out of pain. She’s no longer struggling and while she’l be sorely missed I KNOW she’s in a better place and should feel happy for her.
- My friend with the big “C” I’m still trying to sort out. This one has been super hard for me but I have been praying hard for her and praying that God’s Will be done because this is out of my hands. There is nothing I can do but be there for her, encourage her and pray.
- While I complain a lot about our crappy insurance, I’m glad that the deductible has been met for this year and my husband is able to get the surgery he needs.
- Finding out what was actually wrong with my knees was a biggie. I feel better knowing. I’m not happy about the injections but they gave me exercises to work on and I have hope that I can at least control the pain and still be active.
- The other two things are trivial in the realm of all the other things swirling around in our world and I’m thankful for the time that I had to spend with my cousin and her family. I am thankful that we were able to take some time off and have fun.
So part of my HOW is TRUST. I am taking the hand of God and trusting that HE knows best not me. How to deal with things that are going on? I’m taking them one at a time. I spent a lot of time in prayer and am doing all I can to turn a poor situations into a better ones. Part of my HOW is action, but that is for another post.