Worker Bee Mentality – My How Journey

 

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My “How Journey” has been coming along well.  I felt broken for such a long time.  Like I couldn’t please anyone and that nothing went right.  In reality the only ones I needed to please were my husband and children.  The old adage you can’t please all of the people all of the time was more like a challenge to me than a reality.

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So with further introspection into myself I’ve also discovered what I call the “Worker Bee”.  I had the feeling that I had to hit the floor running in the morning and keep going until my feet hit the sheets for the night.  No wonder I couldn’t sleep.  So much was running through my head and I felt myself to be minimal and unimportant, much like a worker bee.

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Here’s the thing, and I know we’re not the only family dealing with this, but we work to live.  Many people live to work but our family has to work on a consistent basis or there is nothing.  We can’t miss a house payment.  The only debt we have is our mortgage so it should be easy right?  Not so much, one of my husbands full paychecks goes towards the mortgage per month and the rest of the money and what I bring in must pay insurances, medical bills (we have a lot of these), utilities, groceries and car repairs.  There is nothing more in our home that we can cut budget wise.

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This has created the worker bee in me.  On the outside people and family think I’m in the house all day and won’t leave.  It’s not a fear.  It’s if I take the car out of the garage it’s spending money.  I’m home all day right?  Doing nothing?  Nope, I’m blogging, writing, on conference calls, cleaning, cooking, laundry and more.  I hardly have a chance to breathe but it’s always easy for others to judge and so I became the worker bee.  The worker bee that wanted everyone to just leave them alone so they could get their work done and tend the family.

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Lately, I’ve been sitting and thinking what did I used to do that made me happy.  I’ve thought and thought, and thought some more and couldn’t think of anything.  It’s not that I’m unhappy, I’m just MEH… I just kinda sorta just exist.  So I’ve started trying to live in the moment.  To stop and think about things, and one of those things is that I wanted to decorate with decor that was mine.  That I bought, wasn’t given to me and was ME.  It’s not expensive stuff it’s just decor that I’m not displaying to please someone else.  It’s displayed to please ME.  I’ve also started to work on crafting items again for fun.

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I am not a worker bee.  Neither are you, nor is any other human.  We are humans that are supposed to love one another, build each other up, co-exist, live in the moment and be happy! I refuse to be a worker bee any longer.

7 comments for “Worker Bee Mentality – My How Journey

  1. Dotty J Boucher
    October 8, 2016 at 3:49 pm

    I love this post, and I know I have thought about that so many times, I have given up on feeling like bee or a robot, I want to live and love now and be free..
    @tisonlyme143

  2. October 10, 2016 at 6:02 pm

    It’s good you caught this before it became a huge problem. I’m glad to hear your making a shift to a lifestyle that is better for you.

  3. Deborah Caudill
    December 1, 2016 at 9:20 pm

    You should be proud of yourself. I wish I could do half of what you accomplish in a day. Don’t be so hard on yourself because you are there for your family and that is what is the most important. You are creative and have an awesome blog. I admire you. I am 61 now, but I fell and got hurt shortly after getting layed off from a 30 year job. I am on disability now after falling a 2nd time and having to have 2 surgeries. I had been paying on my house alone without missing a payment for 25 years. I am now several payments behind kn my mortgage and I might lose my house now, but I can’t be a worker bee to make it up. Things will work out ok because I have faith that it will. You have lots of living to do and you are a good person, good parent, good wife, good housekeeper, good blogger and worker and have more creativity in your little finger than I do in my whole body. We all do the best we can and if we all help each other, things will be much better. Thanks for your excellent article.

  4. Terry Poage
    December 9, 2016 at 6:59 pm

    Wow thanks for sharing this. I am not a worker bee and the older I get the slower I get.

  5. sihem
    December 15, 2016 at 10:04 am

    great post

  6. Starla
    December 15, 2016 at 11:43 pm

    Wow this is such an incredible post and so, so motivating. It’s so great to improve things like this before things get bad. Such a great positive change for people!

  7. ellen beck
    December 23, 2016 at 5:37 pm

    I used to be a worker bee but was slowed down after my own medical diagnosis, but then especially hubby’s. His was ife changing, and one we both thought might take him. Our perspective changed. We have always been frugal, but now it is more so. I guess the worker bee is still alive and well come to think of it.

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