I’m not even sure where to begin with this, so I’m going to just jump in. I love giving gifts, thoughtful gifts that I think are perfect for the occasion and the receiver. I have a hard time receiving gifts. I always feel unworthy, like I’ve put the giver out, that by receiving I’m guilty of being vain or wanton. When I give it’s out of love and I want that person to know how special they are to me and so it would seem that when I receive the giver feels much of the same.
If I were to work to give a personal gift and the receiver said, “Thank you but I’m not worthy”, or any of the other excuses I listed, I would fee terrible. They would be stealing the love and thought I put into the gift.
In years past I haven’t shaken a gift, guessed or anything else to a gift, because as my kids say I’m a “Fun Sucker” I suck the fun out of everything……. I love watching them shake and guess, but I’ve robbed them of the same possible joy. Why do I hate all of the things about myself that I love about others?
So this year, I’m being thankful and grateful for those around me and to show my love I’m shaking those gifts, I’m truly enjoying every gift given to me, and I’m telling them how much I love and appreciate them, and you know what? If feels good! I feel festive and excited, I feel the love of put into gifts.
As my bestest friend, Karie would say to me, “My friend you have Catholic guilt!”. To some point it’s true but it has nothing to do with being Catholic and everything to do with self image. It also comes from it being instilled in me since childhood that “It’s better to give than receive”. I’m here to say that’s not true. Life is based on balance and in years past I haven’t balanced anything well.
So let me just burst out with this: While it’s good to give, it’s also good to receive. Rip open those boxes and receive with gusto!