2015 was a struggle for our family, I thought 2016 HAD to be better. 2016 was horrid for our family, I thought 2017 HAD to be better. 2017 Came and went and it was a struggle, but I learned I HAVE to make it better or 2018 will follow the years past. I’m not a resolution maker but last year I made myself a 2017 bucket list. I’m super proud to say I accomplished many of the things that were most important to me.
In 2016 I truly believed I was broken. That I could not pick myself up one. more. time. I was WRONG! I could pick myself up but I had to do something that was truly difficult, I had to accept help. I was stuck on stupid with a hamster wheel in my head constantly spinning. I hated me. Not myself just me. How can that be? I consider myself a kind and caring human being, I like that about myself, but ME had issues. I had constant migraines, I was fat, I was tired all the time, I was taking care of everything but me because I didn’t like me.
I’m not perfect and shit happens, shit happens a lot, but instead of taking it personal and thinking that I in some way caused it with ME, I have been working through the issues. It’s not easy and I still fall back to I hate me at times but I’m doing better.
Why should you care? You don’t have to and quite honestly, if you have negative things to say I don’t care, but I do hope that with all the postings of my How Journey that it will help someone. That someone might see these things happening to someone else and give them a hand up. Asking for help is the hardest thing I’ve ever done.
God put us on this earth to be helpmates to one another, not to achieve life and success alone. While it can be done, it will make your success less satisfying and you’ll more than likely be alone in the world.
I can say without a shadow of a doubt that had my greatest friend from The Five Fish, Karie Herring, I wouldn’t have made it the last year. It’s been a struggle to write, if the words aren’t there they just aren’t there, and sometimes we need a shove. Sometimes you need to jump into the middle of the pool to get wet.
For 2018, I pledge to continue working on my bucket list. I pledge to be kind to ME and those around me. I also pledge to be the best wife, mother, daughter, and blogger I can be, while staying true to myself and asking for help.
What are your 2018 goals?